This drew this comic to make you sexually confused.
I'm trying to find the best way that I can explain what I'm about to say. It's difficult and I only find myself rambling in my head with crappy excuses. I'm done with Earth Beta. For those of you who are my loyal readers please read on, otherwise don't waste your time. Thanks for reading my comic.
I've been doing Earth Beta since 2001. For the first 2 years I loved it. Then a friend of mine died and Sean and I didn't feel like be funny anymore. Sean started getting busy, and we weren't our separate ways. Ever since then, my heart's never been in it. After her death, I changed. I lost my passion in things. It's my own fault really. I carried on making Earth Beta for the next 8 years because I felt obligated to do it. I felt that if I kept at it, people would see it and I'd get more fans. I thought if I got a fan base, I'd be more passionate about the comic. But the fan base never came. I only accumulated a handful of fans, which I adore.
A little over year ago, I grew that passion back. I thought to myself, I'm not going to work this dead end job for the rest of my life. I worked there for a total of 4 years, and I was getting paid shit. The business was changing for the worse. Making things harder on others, when it didn't have to be. All because people don't know how to do their own jobs. So after that frustration and anger, I bought myself a Wacom Tablet. I started to take my art seriously. Within 3 months, I worked hard to change my life. I saved over 3,000 dollars and I was off to college.
I went to Florida, thinking this was my chance. All I needed was a co-signer but my family abandoned me. The only people who believed me were my parents. But because my brother has neglected HIS college loans, I got fucked. There is no possible way for me to get a loan for any college unless it's with my own credit. Which is right in the middle. Also I had to find out, my uncle just committed suicide only 20 minutes away from where I was like 6 days ago(at the time). My money bleed out, and the recession just started. I had no money, and I had to come back home.
It's been hard to hold my head high and plow through. It's pathetic really. I shouldn't be so upset because I couldn't go to college. I'm only now realizing that I'm lower middle class. I know I could go to LCC, and afford it. No offense to LCC(Lansing Community College), but there isn't anything they can really teach me. I can learn most everything about art on my own. Look how much I've improved in a year.
I didn't mean for this to be a emo blog about me, sorry. What I'm saying is, I don't have the passion for Earth Beta. I like making the jokes and delivering them. But a majority of the time I'm thinking about other projects I'd rather be doing. Other things I'd rather learn. Earth Beta always standing as a giant road block to my art progress. It's helped me learn a lot, but there isn't anything else it can help me on. It's fulfilled it's use. Now I can move on to other ventures.
I don't see this as a "I quit" situation. I feel more like, I've finally completed Earth Beta. And I feel relieved. I've made over 450 comics, and it's time for something else.
Man, I probably should have made this post funnier.
I mean seriously, this thing sounds like a suicide note.
Don't worry dude, just keep going. You might be eligible for grants and scholorships, why don't you look around?
And your not alone, I've had a lot of death around me(including suicide), and I know it's hard to deal with, but you can't let these things drag you down like an anchor. Cut the rope holding you down and swim to the surface, even if that rope is earth beta.
I wish you good luck and you will be in my prayers.